So I’ve had a bad head cold for the past few days but was still determined to run this race. (Next post I’ll get into sick running) Wake up was at the sickening hour of 2:30am. Got all my stuff ready, had my coffee and left the house at 3:30. I knew it was going to be warm so I went with a tank top and Sweaty Band to keep the sweat off.
I got to Malibu where the parking was around 5:15. Since it was a point-to-point course, runners were bussed from Zuma Beach to the start in Camarillo. The last bus left at 5:30 which is why I had to be there so dang early.
Got to the start (which was where the Camarillo Half Marathon was last month) around 6am with plenty of time to stretch and ignore the fact that I was going to run a marathon.
At 6:30 I had a Heart Thrive energy bar and 3 Clif Shot Roks which were tasty delicious.
I think I was in denial about it all until we actually started. It was almost a little surreal, like I couldn’t get my head around the fact that I was running a marathon. sick.
From the very start I was tired. The whole race my throat was so dry that hurt to swallow. I’m sure this was mostly because I was sick and dehydrated from being sick.
At every aid station I would grab 3 cups of water and choke on the third one and spit up back up. klassy. Unfortunately they only had aid stations every 2-3 miles, and it was a warm day… My car said 80* by the time I got to it.
Anyways, I started running around 8:30 miles. The first 8 were pretty uneventful and boring; they felt like they took forever because we were running around in farm county. The race might end up in Malibu but Malibu, this was not.
At mile 8 I took my first gel (new Clif gels that actually taste good!) and this is when I started slowing down. Already, at 8. geez. It was really windy from about 8 to 16 maybe. Like the kind of wind where you feel like you aren’t moving at all.
The mile markers were balloons but the wind blew them all down.
After mile 8 my pace started edging closer to 9 min/miles. By mile 9 I hit a wall and kept hitting them for the rest of the race. I can’t explain it but if you’ve been there, you know the feeling of utter despair and hopelessness that you feel. The finish is so far off you can’t even fathom it. The only thing worse is quitting, and that is the only reason I kept going.
I hit 14 miles at 2:03. Somewhere around 13 or 14 we hit the beach and ran along the ocean for the rest of the race. It was very beautiful, but in my mind I was running in hell.
Hands down, the hardest race mentally I’ve ever ran. At one point I looked for a medic or race official to quit even though I knew I never would. I just wanted to make sure they were there in case I did.
So the first half of the course was windy and the second half was surprisingly hilly. But the views were gorgeous even though I could not have cared less.
I took my 2nd Clif gel at mile 14.5. I was still super thirsty and was grabbing whatever water I could. At 2 or 3 stations they had coconut water and I took whole bottles of it even though it didn’t taste good and didn’t sit well on my stomach.
Speaking of my stomach, it was not happy… the whole race… Another surreal thing because I’ve never had stomach issues in all my races, and today I had to stop at 2 porta potties to unleash the beast. Suffice to say, something wasn’t right down there.
Even after I got home later in the day I had a couple “OMG I need the bathroom NOW!” moments.
By mile 18 I gave myself permission to walk if I wanted; once again, another surreal moment. I had never walked in a marathon before, but I did today. plenty of times. I tried to walk for .1 mile or less and then start running again.
I can’t explain it well, but it felt like a training run gone horribly bad mixed in with the most hopeless feeling in the world, but it never really felt like a race, probably because this was so out of my normal racing behavior and habits.
I took my 3rd and final Clif gel at 19. By then I was focused solely on finishing. There were times when I was running 10 min/miles and I didn’t even care. I just wanted to be done.
A couple miles from the finish we passed Neptune’s Net, a little restaurant that was on the first Fast and the Furious movie. Even when I’m walking death, I still don’t forgo my love of celeb stalking.
Finally we were in Malibu and I ran as fast as I could to get in under 4 hours.
The official results aren’t out yet, but my garmin said 3:58:17, 9:05 average pace.
I had to sit down for a second and then grabbed some water, 2 bananas, and a couple sample bags of Popchips.
While slowly walking to my car, I had the stroke of brilliance to go take a ice bath in the ocean. Best idea of the day.
I first got up to my knees and then sat in the water so my hips could get some cold love too. It actually felt really good because I was super sore and achy.
This race was 4 hours of misery. honestly. It was the hardest race (mentally and probably physically too) that I’ve ran. I didn’t feel 100% obviously but mentally I wasn’t ready to race either.
There were so many times that I wanted to quit, so even though I PW’ed (personal worst) by a long shot, I am really proud of myself for finishing.
It was a fight, and I gutted it out.




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you totally gutted it out. i’m soooo impressed. the mental fortitude you have is rocking! congrats again.
You poor thing, it sounds utterly miserable.
I’m sorry you had such a rough race. But you finished it and that’s a huge accomplishment. Especially since you were really sick!!
You are still a HUGE inspriation to me!!
Gurrrllll.. you are such a bad @ss. you were sick, stop being so hard on yourself. go rest and you will still be a bad @ss over and over again!
WOW!!! Congrats! I recently found your blog and you are a huge inspriation to me as well!! I just recently started running and have done two 5ks. I would love to do a marathon later on…when I’m ready of course!
I’m sorry you had such a tough run, but I appreciate your honesty! Sometimes I feel like bloggers (in general) have such an easy time running all these races and every race is ‘amazing.’ We all know things go wrong all the time, so thanks for sharing your misery
Next time will be better, you are a huge running inspiration!
Wow- I can’t beleive you did a sub 4 hr marathon sick! I’d have a hard time at that pace on my best day. Way to go!
i got nuthin. now i KNOW you arent human ;o)
get some rest dammit!!!
Poor you! Very impressed that you did finish this beasty marathon!
Want to feel better about yourself? Just a bit? Then go and read about my sucky NYC Marathon…torned muscle at mile 8 and limping it out…yeah…sucked…
so….how much of the misery had to do with your awesome run you had just a week ago? i mean, you seriously kicked some tail at new york. then you got sick (probably from the nasty stuff floating around in planes and airports). and you STILL FINISHED in UNDER FOUR HOURS! rock star all the way!
we all have awful races that teach us how to respect the distance. but we come out stronger and more resilient. way to push through and not quit!
I’m just in awe that you stuck it out for the duration. Kudos xx
I read your blog daily and I always feel so in awe of your Marathon triumphs. I think its awesome you had the mental fortitude to finish the race. There is nothing worse than being sick and running. I really appreciate your honesty! “Skinnyrunner”… she is just like us!!
I think it is fantastic that you pushed through being sick, sore, dehydrated, etc. and finished! You are one strong SR.
Now that you’ve experienced the bad and ugly, it makes the good so much sweeter!
I feel sick just reading this recap! I can barely run (drive) to the drugstore when I’m sick, let alone run a marathon. Good grief, girl. Nicely done.
Are you not afraid of getting injured running sick? is this really worth it? I guess it is a fine line between gutting it out for the right reasons and just gutting it out per se.
At least, you always look glamorous doing it, sick or not
9 out of 10 people would have quit. You are so strong mentally to have stayed in the game. Now time for some TLC.
9 out of 10 wouldnt have started is what i think! myself included!!
holy cow! way to go with finishing. I don’t know that I’d be able to do it.
also, the picture of all of the people at the finish cracks me up. I love seeing characters
Oh girl, great work for finishing it even. So many people can’t even do that. When I had a PW (I’m glad I’m not the only one that uses that) at my last swim meet my coach told me-Hollie, you are in the top 1% that can even swim a mile.
I hope you feel better and I’m glad you finished. Get some rest.
You finished and thats what matters! I don’t know if I would have wimped out and not run if I was sick. You are amazing and still finished in under 4 hours. That is something to be proud of and hey it gives you good running stories to blog about and learn from.
So glad you are ok! Hope you start to feel better soon! You are an inspiration! Congratulations on finishing.
Wow…sounds like a miserable race! But way to stick it out and finish strong.
I hope you’re feeling better. Your hubby too. Bathroom issues bite during marathons. You’re lucky this was your first time experiencing that.
Rest up.
Congrats on you finish… which was such a huge feat with being sick! Rest up!
First of all, just found your blog and LOVE it.
Had to say that.
And 2nd, I was supposed to run Malibu this weekend. I registered and trained and then wound up injured when my long runs hit 18 miles. I am now training for Surf City in February.
So sorry you had such a tough race. They only make you stronger, right? I know, nobody wants to hear that.
I hate that feeling when you just want to be done but the end still seems so far. I have yet to conquer the marathon (I will in February if it kills me) but I can still sympathize with that feeling because I get it on long runs once in awhile.
Sounds like a tough course, too. But you did it! And you still got under 4 hours! You’re awesome.
I don’t know how you finished it….let alone under 4 hours! You are amazing! Looks like a beautiful race but I totally understand how that doesn’t even matter when you are mentally defeated! Good call on the ocean ice bath:) Get some rest!!
Seriously, you rock. Way to go! In my opinion it is much tougher and more admirable to stick it out through a terrible race than to completely dominate 26.2 on a “perfect” race day. I have had one AWFUL marathon myself, and it’s made me appreciate the good races and runs so much more. Thanks for sharing your story–feel better soon!
Hi SR-
Great job yesterday! That takes serious determination. I wanted to let you know about a new blog I’m writing: http://allthingsthruhim.wordpress.com
I hope you’ll check it out!
Ok but seriously, what did you do after you sat in the water? Please tell me you didn’t drive 2 hrs home with swamp butt.
Get well soon, crazy.
haha, thanks for looking out for my butt. they gave out beach towels instead of t shirts at the finish line so i went naked wrapped in towel.
awesome!
That’s kind of more than I wanted to know, but thanks for clarifying.
Wow, sounds like my 10 mile race this weekend…but like you, i think the only worst feeling would have been if i quit.
But congrats on sticking it out – your time is still amazing in my book.
PS. I really liked the person who designed the “I want to punch running in the face” shirt – would they be ok if i made one myself??
Congrats lady on finishing. Even if it was a PW for you, it’s better than many of us can do, and it’s inspiring none the less. I hope you’re feeling better!!
Wow you ran so much faster than me in your sickly condition. That’s all that needs to be said of your badassery! It comforts me a little to hear you say that those hills at the end were surprisingly hilly. I thought I was just being a huge wimp. I mean, there is no doubt that I should definitely train on more hills but I would have cried a little bit on the inside if you had said that they were mole-hills.
Considering you ran a near PR last weekend, I can see why your body would revolt upon ANOTHER marathon while sick 7 days later.
I have done the Pacific Ocean Ice Bath – it works pretty well. But the swamp butt – this is annoying. I usually go up to my knees so I don’t ride home feeling like I have peed myself (though if the waves are especially strong, I end up getting wet butt anyway). I really should bring a pair of extra shorts on long runs and do that all the time b/c the water is cold enough to reduce swelling/soreness.
“Swamp butt”…LOL! That’s like one of my worse running fears, followed by having to use my pepper spray, encountering a wild animal and chafing.
shame shame sr – you shoulda forfeited this. running sick is not healthy – you shoulda listened to your body and stopped.
heck no techno.
i listened to my body and it said, “Run faster you slow poke!”
i think you were still drunk on nyquil
great run for feeling under the weather!
And I thought I enjoyed torturing MYSELF! You win!
You are ridiculous….ly impressive girl. Congrats!
When feeling crappy and race day are at the same time, it sucks. Major kudos for sticking to it. I understand the desire to not quit, but I might have taken a nap halfway through and then picked it back up!
You are one crazy strong woman! I’m a huge baby…I need to man up! I’m going to come back and read this post when I’m sitting in a corner whining about my freezing cold marathon training runs in January! (I live in WI, seriously, freezing cold)
So glad you survived to blog about this (and live another day!).
You are hard on yourself! To me it’s amazing to even run a marathon when you are sick. I have been sick for a month now, one cold for two weeks, a few days break, and then another cold… being sick takes its toll. I’ve still been running, but can tell the difference.
Wow, that sounds really tough. Way to go for not quitting and pushing through to the end. Hope you feel better soon!
My husband and I (and a couple other friends too) ran the Malibu Half yesterday! It was our first race and didn’t have a great time, but we did it! We are HUGE SR fan and were totally looking for you to pass us. The race was surprisingly hilly and quite hot…let alone unorganized. But glad you made it through. Did you see any celebrities, we were hoping to see some?
i didnt see any, bummer. but congrats on your 1st half, thats awesome!
I can totally identify when you said “The only thing worse is quitting, and that is the only reason I kept going.”
Couldn’t agree with you more.
Great job S.R!
On a side note I contributed to your quit fishing fund & bought a new pair of Mizuno’s (I wear the same one’s as you) through Running Warehouse. $68 & free shipping was a steal! Thank you!
OMG you do know oconut water is a dieuretic, right? esp if you arent used to drinking it. if you were dirnking full bottles no wonder you had to go to the bathroom all day lol!
you still put me to shame on my best day with your times. I think its pretty hardcore you ran even while sick!
you are for certain, a rockstar!.. omg, I’m so sorry you felt like crap ..but dang, I envy you even at your worst, what a beast! I did my very first half, averaging 12 mins/mile… it took me 2 hrs 30 mins for the whole thing… one day, sr, one day I will be like you (if I’m lucky)
It sucks that you were so sick- and I’m completely impressed that you stuck this out! You are pretty amazing!! Your a huge inspiration, thank you
Rest Up Lady
CONGRATS on finishing girl!! Seriously… that really does take some guts! Hope you feel better soon!!
Zaneta
http://zanetaruns.blogspot.com
I would kill for a 4:00 finish. I ran San Antonio yesterday and finished 5:22. I used 7 power bar goo packets and 2 packages of Clif Shots.
Way to stick with it and not quit! That’s all that matters is that you finished strong! Great race even though it was grueling!
What guts and determination!! Hope you are felling better soon.
Well that’s feeling better soon.
sorry it was such a crappy race for you!! that was portland for me this year. Way to go for getting to that finish come hell or high water. Brilliant to go ice bath in the ocean!! You’ve got me convinced to run that one next year. Grew up down there and i miss it a ton…it would be amazing to run a long PCH for a marathon. Love it. Congrats on a sub-4 even with all that you had going on!
I was bummed I missed this race and sorry it was such a struggle for you. Battling a cold and then running 26.2 is no joke! Way to tough it out and still go sub 4
Great photos. You captured the event nicely. I enjoyed reading about your perservance.
In a year or two you will appreciate the beauty of the photos more than you will remember the misery.
You’re a machine, good for you for gutting it out like that. Now I have no excuse to skip my workout this afternoon, so THANKS.
I know this is way after the fact, but congrats on a great accomplishment!!!!
Slowly working my way up to a marathon, and reading this is all the more encouraging. The photos are great and I added you to my blogroll :blush:
I know this is a way late comment, but I’ve been reading some of your older posts cause, lets face it, you rock. This post struck such a chord with me. I ran my second marathon a few weeks ago planning/hoping to run 3.40-3.50. I’d done a 1.40 half a few weeks prior with ease, and my training had been smooth sailing. On the day I had an absolute shocker, with really horrible stomach cramps. I have no idea why. It was so hard. I managed to get through half in 1.50, but then it all went south. I never take walk breaks but had to from 27km. It was crushing and awful. I seriously considered quitting and was looking out for someone I knew in the crowd to drive me back to my car. Thankfully I saw no one and toughed it out cause the quickest way to get the torture over was to keep putting one foot in front of the other. It was utter agony. I finally dragged my sorry self over the finish in 4h8m. Then I was so totally pumped that I had toughed it out and finished. It was only marathon number 2, but I’m prouder of it than my 3h51 first marathon for some reason. Weird. Running a bad marathon is crap, but quitting is worse.
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